woman of his dreams

a murmuring voice called to him softly from the forest

perplexing, as no one was supposed to be around

no one for miles

that is why he chose this place

the breeze carried sweet songs of wren to his ear

normally he would delight in their melody,

yet their tune was agitating

distracting him from finding the source of the lulling, hypnotic siren’s call

 he needed to find the voice that, even now, from a distance,

was having such a palliative effect on him

giving him hope and new reason to live

he walked a bit too briskly through the woods,

finding patches of dried leaves made for slippery footing

and he almost tumbled into the lake before he saw it

and it was her reflection that first mesmerized

there was something supernal about her beauty

he was half afraid she would evaporate when he looked up

yet

there she was… in graphic detail, drenched in sunlight

fully exposed to his hungry, grateful gaze

not vapor, yet not really flesh and bone

skin kissed golden by an artist’s brush,

hair adorned with flowers and moss,

she was the epitome of beauty and nature

she was all he searched for yet never felt worthy of

at once he felt a desire, a lust, not for his pleasure alone

but to see her face alight with joy, with ecstasy

and to know that he had given that to her

who had given him everything

~Melanie Thomason

5/12/2014

 

 

 

 

 

A year and a poem (or 3)

One year ago, today, I started my WordPress journey.  It was my first ever attempt at blogging AND my first time sharing my words with more than one or two close friends. I wasn’t sure if anyone would even find me amoung the thousand of blogs out there… much less find my offerings of value.  I wasn’t sure if this was the right avenue for me or if I would even continue more than a week or two. Now, here we are.

The support I’ve found here is amazing.  Beyond the “follows” and the “likes” I have experienced some heartfelt, thoughtful comments, critique and encouragement.  I have even made some connections that now extend outside of this blogging world; making friends I hope will be part of life for years to come. All of this is to say Thank You to all of you.  Because of you I have not abandoned this journey and I am truly living in the land of the word that I so love for the first time in ages. In fact, I’m currently working on a book of poetry and a novel…something I have never had the courage to actually pursue before.  It was always only a dream, until now, until you.

This WP community is full of talented people and I am happy to be one of them.  🙂

♥

And because this is always all about the words, the art, the poetry…I leave you with a poem or 3.

⊥

I.

I hear the rain

as it advances

you rush inside 

I’ll take my chances

I’m not afraid

of getting wet

the pouring rain

helps me forget

⋅

II.

rain

washes

away the shame

accumulated through years of pain

⋅

III.

It’s raining here, the skies are grey

but I do not feel that way

I am not sad, I don’t feel blue

I close my eyes and think of you

with face upturned and arms outstretched

your love for me doesn’t seem farfetched

it’s raining here, I dance and sing

for in the rain, my heart takes wing

⋅

~Melanie Blackwell

 

 

Cell Memory

there-

do you see it?

look!

look harder

you gotta kinda squint your eyes

and let go

let the focus slide a little off

and look with your soul

with the wide red eyes of your heart

now

LOOK

do you see?

do you SEE?

♦

i dreamt of you and that is the scary part

it’s not just that you’re you and you’re beautiful

it’s that you are so aptly suited to me

like i couldn’t have built you better

♦

sometimes, oh, sometimes i think i am so STUPID —

so stupid to let myself get into this mess

but i’ve been living it for so long i don’t know what else to do or how else to be

sometimes,  oh sometimes,  i wonder

♦

yes, it is to You, but i won’t let you read this

because it doesn’t mean anything

and you don’t need to know

it’s all been to someone

all of it

it’s always been aimed somewhere

just happens to be you — this time

which is to say —

it’s the most real thing in the world

♦

but in the end

it is less about you

and more about me

because when you’re gone

i will still have my words

♦

me and my Words

a match made somewhere on the rim of hell

♦

oh, and i don’t even know what i’m blathering about anymore

it’s all gotten lost in the translation from thought to tongue to paper

it is all lost

and i’m

lost

LOST

♦

if I keep this up I’m gonna say something I can’t take back

going to confess some terrible rhyme

one of these days you’ll take your hair down and it will kill me

i don’t know how to explain but i have this THING for hair

for long dark hair on long white men

it’s something older than time and a memory in my cells

some THING that makes my soul ache

♦

i am ample distraction

if i sit here long enough

maybe i’ll sprout roots

maybe i’ll grow on you

(sounds like a threat to me — better run!)

(come undone)

(better do it, now –or else)

♦

when you opened the door did you expect to find me?

do you know what you are looking at?

do you know me and will you hear my name?

♦

i don’t ask or offer because i don’t want to be turned down

even gracious objection is wounding enough on its own

without the killing pain of outright refusal

but — you KNOW, now you know, i told you and you still talk to me like i’m a human being —

that is something

something i wouldn’t have had the guts for a year ago

do you ever wonder at the tide of time?

do you wonder as the candy-man plinks coins off the links in my spine?

♦

not like that, not like it was but as it will be

future imperfect, the residual of years of languages —

♦

wild

feral

bestial

Queen

oh the things

you might have been

♦

i couldn’t let it be a secret, not this time, you’re too you for me to have suffered in silence

where is this going?

is it at an end —

oh gods

i don’t know

how to end

i never have

that’s my curse

and gift i guess

this mobius strip of endless dithering

i think i must

stop

now

or else

it’s time

now

for my date

with

Death

~Melanie Blackwell

*an old journal entry unearthed

amaranthine

your love

burned bright red

a  love so many long for 

I needed a deeper hue

an amaranthine love

♥

~Melanie Blackwell

memories

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meandering memories mesmerize my mind

forgetting, fabricating favorable falsities 

painting palpable pictures

 lacking lucidity

♥

~Melanie Blackwell

my curse~ (for prompt 27 curse)

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seeking

striving

searching

for that One who refuses to be named

and I know that not all that glitters is gold

and this knife certainly cuts both ways

tis but a scratch and I’m not dead yet

but I’m guilty as charged

of casting my pearls before swine

but when will love be mine?

in this world of black and white

and hate and lies

I’m painting the roses red with my tears of blood

fighting

failing

falling

down the rabbit hole

but this Alice can’t catch up to her elusive white

and me thinks there are no white knights

or prince charmings

and I’ll  forever be chasing rainbows 

in the dark

My curse is 

My gift is 

My love

—  ~Melanie Blackwell

 

 

 

 

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Sweet Interlude

Your words dripped from your lips

I drank them in like honey

and I was drowning,

sighing

∞

I gazed into your soulful eyes

like pools of rich hot chocolate

and I was drowning,

melting

∞

The air is still thick with your goodbye

it is like breathing in molasses

and I’m drowning,

dying

~Melanie Blackwell

Whole – for Prompt 23: Anais Nin quotes

Surrounded by sheeple, yet I feel all alone

I’ll risk Medusa’s wrath, I might be better as stone

˜

I long for a connection, for a love that is real

it may well destroy me but at least I will feel

˜

I’ll gladly drown in the onyx depths of your soul

forsaking oxygen for one taste, one chance to be whole

∞

~Melanie Blackwell

For mindlovemisery’s prompt – see the prompt and her amazing words  at http://mindlovemisery.wordpress.com

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